As we always know, or seen through our eyes, facing the challenge is always difficult even though we're fully prepared for it. The reason behind is simple: we human are never ready to face anything. No matter how prepared us are, a part of us still resist to face-up with the difficulties. Such are human's nature.
However, today's main topic isn't on this particular matter. I always thought that facing the problem is always the toughest thing in the world (at least in myown point of view), but little did I know, something proves to be harder than this.
On the decisive Monday in December where I had my ACCA finals, I fought head-on with one of my worst nightmare, the Advanced Taxation paper. In the past, I believe that I had worked so hard and I didn't deserve a failure. At least not such a close failure at 48 mark which shatter my iron will towards studies. The fact was that, I didn't give in even close to 40% of my efforts for this round; there was blockade in my mind that was busy telling me to give up. The voice was so alluring that it took almost superhuman will to resist.
I thought, with the trauma I was facing, it proved to be the most difficult thing to go for a second round battle with my nightmare. But little did I know, waiting was actually the tougher one. Waiting for the unforeseen and waiting for uncertainty. These two alone were more than enough to send a normal person crazy.
She told me that initially, but I couldn't believe, at least until the following Wednesday of that week where I had to go through the longest 3 hours I ever waited in my life. She had to face with her worst nightmare too, and for that, I was dreaded with concern. I waited and waited alone, keep thinking how was she performing and fearing her that she might not perform well enough. A fact was that, I couldn't concentrate at all in the library at all.
With that, I could draw up a simple equation right here: Waiting is more painful as compared to facing the challenge yourself. That is the reason why you should always strive for the best and give in all of your might, so that the person who's waiting for your return will be rewarded in your future success.
Waiting for your arrival @ 5:31 AM