I'd rather choose to be cruel, and hate by the community, rather than feeling sorry to myself.

I'm directing and leading myself to a route, which everyone would thought that I'm such a sucker with no doubts. Anyway, it's just following my instinct. I don't want to feel sorry either to myself, or my 'friend'.

From now, I'll be cruel to you, and YOU only. Since you want it that way, and you deserve it, I'll be granting your 'wish' become true.

Don't blame me. I do this not only for my own concern, but yours too. Think about it deeper, and you'll understand the meaning hidden or shaded on this post.
But frankly, I doubt that you'll ever understand, haha...

Anyway, good luck to you. I'm not going to go easy on you.