Went for hospital yesterday, and I get some unexpected result which I couldn't accept the fact...

I'm suffering from hearing loss, 40% for left ear while 30% for right ear. Both of the nerve of my ears have been damaged (probably it already happens when I was given birth), and there's no cure for it other than wearing those equipment assisting us in hearing.

Doctor suggested that, and they cost RM2k per. I'll need 2, and there goes RM4k...What the hell...It was such a shocking news to me, and my mom even cried when she hears that. The moment I heard this I was like, I have no feelings. I don't know what should I feel to be exact.

Want to cry, but I can't force those tears out. Want to laugh, but I can't fake them out. The world's suddenly like turns dark, and I'm enveloped within the great darkness...
RM4k isn't a small number to my mom, whereas she also having problems in letting me complete me. Where she'll be finding them for me?

I feel sorry...And I lost something precious to me...

After the bloody test, I went to college (late for 30 minutes). I can't really focus in the class, and can't fake the smile I always shown out on my face. Even I'm not feeling sleepy, I can even lie down and snores the next seconds.

I want to hear the beautiful voices just like the others...I wish...

It already becomes that worse now...And I can't even imagine what would happens when I'm older. I'm afraid that time I couldn't even hear a single word right now...

I think I won't be needing the RM4k only, but maybe need to change those equipment annually, or once a few years...
The accumulated cost won't be small.

Now I wish I will be born in a wealthy or rich family. Being in a poor family must always concern and think a lot before buying any stuffs...
I want to be rich, someday if can...