Oh yeah. It's been eternity since I last posted a proper article onto this blog. There are a lot, or perhaps tons of special/sad events taken part within this month. Disastrous man...

I know I've been very quiet for this few weeks, behave strangely. Why am I doing so? I also can't answer this question easily. It's just like my brain command my body and limbs to do so, and they just obey its command only. Something happens 1-2 weeks ago, and have slightly related to her. I still don't know that whether it's I'm the one who think too much, or it a reality. And also, yesterday something happens and I get a dual heavy knock from some solid items on my head. Frankly, you can hit mostly any part of my body; but if my heart get hit, rage and hatred will burn within my heart.
Blur rite? I also don't really know what am I tlaking...

I've just get my ps2 recently, which I written in previous article before. It's a good source for me to release my feeling to. I'm obessed with fantasy-related games/anime, or bla bla bla...You know why? My favourite activity throughout the day is imagining. I've played a lot rpg games. A lot of them are quite good. These few days/weeks, I've been playing a game name 'Tales of Legendia'. From my first glance on the game, I thought it's sux. As I proceed further, I found that the game had rather touching and nice storyline. I should stop talking about game...

Fantasy, it's a world which anything can become true. I like fantasy because anything I wish would become true within the world; while reality it's the opposite. Maybe someobody will says that I must face reality, and keep a distance from the fantasy world. Yeah, it's true, but...You know how much it hurts me in reality? I don't want to live in this cruel reality, I wish I could be like those characters within those fantasy rpg games. I feel better if I use this way to comfort myself, rather than forcing myself to accept the reality. I tried to cope with reality before, but doesn't seems to be work. Eventaully with those feelings, I've created the fantasy story of mine, which kinda...one of the summarized story that appears within my mind frequently.

Stop about fantasy, I'm a Leo. I cannot hold and kept my feelings well. It's so hard just to keep my feelings buried deep within my heart. Whenever I was sad, I do hope that at least got someone, or anyone who could phone, ask, comfort me. My world is actually engulf with darkness, which no one would ever know; not even my family members. As I said before, you could see I'm smiling happily, but who knows maybe I'm crying silently within my heart? Those invisible tears, no one could ever detect them.

About the crush thing, I've comfirmed that my feel to her without doubt is still the strongest. Others are just like some just-lighten up flames, which is small and weak; while hers already become the strong fire, that engulfs a huge, burning mansion. Funny and silly right? I'm just a weirdo after all. The way I react to something is different from the others. Yeah, I'm proud to be a weirdo. I want to be someone unique among a group of people; which is one of the personality of Leos, I'm glad about it!

I should end this article. It seems to become more and more..crapping. After all this is one of the master piece I've created. Oh my god, enough of crapping la JY...Wake up from your dream, and face the reality...