You know wert, I've been rarely updating my blog nowadays...You know why? That's because everyday my thoughts are almost the same, and I just don't want to repeat them again and again inside this blog, it's sucks....

Today, during my p3 class, after lunch we still have 2 hours class. Just as the class starts, or started for a moment, she appears on my mind again. I've subconciously written her chinese name within my notes. I've pressed too deep enough until after I use rubber to rub them off, the mark is still there. I could still read her name on the notes. For me, her chinese name sounds so beautiful, and far the best words I know in Chinese. I've tried to keep myself from thinking her, by talking to others, but still...I failed. I still couldn't forget her even though I'm doing so...

It ended up by the dark and stormy night. As usual I went online when I reached home. I'm prepared to edit my story since I've just got a nice inspiration today, and going to insert them into the story. It's still untitled until now, sad case huh? Around 9-10, she went online. It's been a routine work for me to click her name when she's online, and message her 'Hi'...As I thought, she didn't reply at all. After waiting for a long time (approximately 20-30minutes), I message her 'Are you there' since her status didn't change to 'away' or 'busy'. And still, I didn't get any reply. Getting a bit frustrated, I asked my friend to try...message her. Within a few moment, he told me that she has reply him, and furthermore is extraordinary fast that type. WHAT THE HELL is this happening. Upon hearing this news, my mood had automaticly die off, and feeling like suicide that kind. Without any waste of time, I bid farewell with anyone that I'm currently chatting with, except her, and click on the magical button 'Sign Out' without any hesitate.

With that job done, I immediately logon to blogger and post this article. Currently, the suffering heart aches had return to me 0_0. It hasn't buggering me for such a long time already, and I've to communicate with this long gone friend for some moment. I don't know why she's doing so, and I don't want to know either. Maybe I should think about giving up starting for now...

UGGGGGHHHH...It's pain. If let me choose a word, I want to use the word bleeding to describe it. The Hell's Gate maybe is opening and giving me a warm welcome? Tatt Hoong! Tell me what should I do since you're something like Grim Reaper, or Message Deliverer from the Hell...