What is actually a heart aching? or what the proper words to describe the feel? I cannot really identifies it...

Before the three 'major' events happened, my life is completely happy, confidence, or should I say I don't know what's a true pain is.Ever since that happen, I relized that pain, is such suffering. It's not an abstract word to me anymore, cause at any time, any where, I could suddenly get a heart ache. This does not means that I've a heart attack, it's just like your heart suddenly feel damn pain. To describe the pain, it'll be like my heart, get pierced suddenly by thousand needles; soon it get stomped by something as heavy as an elephant; and nevertheless, it shattered into pieces.Funny is it? Every of these heart aches event is Seriously not nice, it's just like ending your life right now, is much more better.

My college life had begun for quite some time, and something unique happens, which I'll never thought of that...And also, the heart aches which used to less a lot, after since a long time which lx didn't really, or I should say her images fades slowly within my mind. I Don't Want It To Happen At All Cost! I Love Her, I'm Sure About That!I don't know why? My good side, and bad side are battling each others, fighting over 'something'. Seems like, the bad side going to win, and I'll probably get dominated by it.Don't really know what to say...Just like my thinkings and thoughts clashing once again. It's driving me insane.

*Ugh..* I get two continous heart aches just now. Aww...it's darn pain...When will this...chaos ends?

posted on January 26, 2006 8:13 AM